Family Ties

Chapter 15


Beth was so engrossed in writing about her anger at Alec's timing in her journal that she didn't even notice that Lizzie had come in the door crying. She was so pissed! So frustrated! Jon had actually been ready to kiss her and Alec ruined it!

She continued to write about todays events. How and when did things change for her and Jon. She didn't exactly know but she knew when she started feeling different for him. It was long before the heart to heart. Actually, now that she thought about it. He had always made time for her. Taking her to the boardwalk was one of the favorite things to do along with going to Asbury Park. And he truly cared about what she had to say , didn't push her off saying 'not now kid' . When she needed a shoulder to cry on he was there. Nothing against Teek , but Jon was just different.

She knew Jon had broken up with his girlfriend prior to the New Jersey tour and he had been very upset about it . He had kept in touch with her in London and the calls were very quick but not this call. It had been very late, London time his voice sounding very tried and racked with emotion. It about killed her to hear him so upset, but she did her best to comfort him. He then got angry. Swearing he wasn't having another relationship again. She had listened and reasured him as only a special close friend can. The fact he turned to her made her feel good. She finally could return the favor as he many times comforted her over the years .

How could she explain what happened today . It definitely wasn't her imagination things were different. He wanted to kiss her. It was obvious in the way he tenderly touched her face and leaned in mere inches away from her lips. She thought her heart was going to explode in her chest from the anticipation .

So close but so far . Oh god. she had felt his breath on her lips, that's how close he was .

Damn you Alec!!! Why of all times, did you have to show up she wrote angrily. Would it have gone further than a kiss, she wondered. Part of her hoped it would have, but she also didn't want to be one of his "friends" she heard he has had since the break up

No Jon wouldnt treat her like that . Or would he? Was it just his body responding to her or was he starting to feel something too. God she wished she knew. Did she even have a chance with him, knowing he doesnt want another relationship. She sighed and closed her journal, then reached over and turned out the light.



Jon walked in his room and shut the door. His head was spinning from that--almost kiss. Damnit! It wasn't even a kiss and he was hard. Seemed like today all it took was just thinking about those lusicious lips of Beth's. What the fuck! Why couldn't he get her off his mind?

He went to the bathroom and flipped on the light and stripped. He glanced down and grimaced, Yep! There it was.Captain Jr--saluting the mirror. He started the water for a shower, making sure to switch it as cold as he could stand.

What the hell is with me? I get thousands of women throwing themselves at me and sure an occasional erection happens. But fuck today I swear my dick was on a mission and it wasn't going to be satisfied til it got what it wanted. 
He swore in frustration. He wasn't going to treat Beth like that. She deserved better than a fuck.--she deserved to be loved , spoiled , treated like a queen. He had told her after his breakup no more relationships, they were just too painful.

But Beth was different, wasn't she? Could he trust his heart again. Could he trust his heart to Beth? Beth wouldnt hurt him and he sure as hell wouldn't hurt her. God how did this get so complicated in just a day. or had it just been a day? Was there something between them before this ? He knew he could always count on her no matter what the problem was.

The day of the break up he couldnt even turn to Richie or the others. He didn't think they would understand. He called Beth first. She was so sweet and understanding letting him get all the emotions out that needed to be let out. He had cried, he had yelled, and she had listened.

Now tonight, the way she laid her head on his shoulder all sleepily, she looked like an angel he wanted to just hold all night in his arms. By the smile on her face she was content, and the walk to the door his eyes trailed down to her lips just one taste , one kiss what would that hurt. Or could he stop? All day he had to fight the strong urge to just lay her down and fuck her , no no make love to her ..

Oh god what is happening to me . 

He shut off the water and dried off himself off then made his way to the bed, finally settling down for the night .

What about tomorrow and all week. He sighed, they were to work so close together, how in the hell was he to survive this without a case of blueballs. He stretched himelf out in the bed and laid there for the longest time. Sleep was not to come easy for him, and when it did his dreams were of his Bethy.